The Real Truth
I started my downward spiral into a bottomless pit at 13 years of age. My home life was pretty broken growing up; my dad was mostly absent, and my mother worked all the time. My mother was married a few times, so I had people, who I became attached to, come in and out of my life. One of those attachments was an older step-brother who I began to draw close to and admire. After a few years, he began molesting me on a regular basis while our parents were at work. This completely smashed my feelings of trust. My mom was injured at work when I was 11 years old. She was deeply depressed and began to abuse pain medicine. The mother I knew had died, in essence, and I was left with a lifeless body to look after me. I became bitter and angry at God. At that point, I discovered drugs that numbed the pain in my heart and mind. I started to cheat and manipulate everyone and everything around me.
After wearily crawling along dark paths, I was led to the path of light while at the Haven, walking hand-in-hand with Jesus Christ. The light of His presence is filling all of the deep, dark cracks left in my soul from years of pain. I thank God today for my brokenness. If I wasn’t stumbling around, blindfolded in the dark, I wouldn’t have fought so intently to find the true Way–Jesus. If I hadn’t listened with such ignorance to all the lies and deceit in the dark of my past, I wouldn’t yearn to hear the real Truth. If I hadn’t merely existed without purpose in the dark, my heart wouldn’t desire to seek out true Life.
Life is too short, and man is it short when you’re not even living it. Today I don’t fall in among the living dead; I choose Life, and I choose to live in the Light. Because of all my past darkness, I see the Light so much brighter!
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.” –Jeremiah 29:11
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